I was so sure that if I just let go of the past I'd get better.
I let go. It was definitely an improvement.
But the damage of PTSD is not the same as "unresolved issues". There are neurological changes. Your biochemistry gets reset to a completely unhealthy "normal". For people like me with delayed reactions to long term stress, untangling everything is very complicated. Things can definitely improve... Meds, therapy, support, learning to live inside my boundaries and limits...big helps.
But I'm not "healed". I'm not "like I was before". I'm not who I wish I could be.
I'm OK, though, and I'm coping pretty well with this chronic disease. It nearly killed me a year ago, and I came back from that. Yay me. But this is chronic. Not "wait it out, it'll go away.". This is here to stay, though how it is expressed may fluctuate over time.
My life has limits I never dreamed I would need. It's still a good life. Very good, in fact.
But letting go of my past didn't magically make all the consequences of that past go away. (this was a huge shock and disappointment to me... I was sure that's what would fix everything)
And it's not because I haven't tried hard enough, haven't done the work. It's just how PTSD - especially the variant I have - works.
I'm only now starting to understand this.